sometimes i want to....die...

HisDevil · Member Age: 16 Joined: 13 Mar 2007 Posts: 15

i hate being depressed.. i dont show it much tho around my friends, i used to but they started thinkin i was emo and stuff... they thought i cut myself, but i dont think i ever did,.. but i have thought about killing myself.... when i get mad i go straight to a knife.. or anything that's sharp... people bring me down and i dont know if they're just kiddin or forreal.. it hasnt been happening lately but it does every now and then... my best friend says im crazy and suicidal.. which the only reason i am "crazy" is because im confused about my "love life" i guess u can say... but i dont know how to handle my anger.

XD-bear · Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2007 10:46 pm Post subject:

try a diary....sometimes letting it out to yourself even helps a lot when you feel like that

Hopper17041993 · Regular Age: 45 Joined: 17 Mar 2007 Posts: 78

Diaries are pretty sissy(no offence to anyone by that comment sorry) and plus people can read it with a lock or not.
Horse Riding can help, boot the hell out of the stupid mare/stallion/gelding that won't go over the jump and you are so tired after you couldn't care less about being depressed just as long as you can sleep lol.
Otherwise I suggest Swimming. Swim, until your body gives out so you can not swim. Gliding through the water takes your mind off it. The swimming thing helps me, exhaust yourself through anger and for energy kicks eat strawberries and watermelon.

One Lucky Girl · Posted: Sun Apr 01, 2007 11:56 am Post subject:

hey i kinda have the same problem that you have , and i can't talk to anybody because they say that i'm really sick or i'm just imagening things that cause my depretion .
i tryed a diary it kinda work .
but if you ever need to talk just take my msn adress and add me to your contact list , i could use a freind to talk to.
Smile

XD-bear · Posted: Sun Apr 01, 2007 2:19 pm Post subject:

excercising wouldnt work for me, tiring my self out doensnt make me forget about my problems but its a good way to relieve tension and stress.
but backing up for diaries its a way to vent how your feeling and express it in words which sometimes makes the problem seem less bad or can help you figure a way to solve it.

thepenguin · Posted: Sun Apr 01, 2007 7:23 pm Post subject:

how about anti-depressants, nothing better than artificial happiness

HisDevil · Member Age: 16 Joined: 13 Mar 2007 Posts: 15

well i will have 2 wait for the swimming thing because its not quite warm enough to swim where i live,.. but i'll try to do the best i can.. if u got any more ideas, TELL ME! lol.

krzykool182 · Regular Age: 16 Joined: 21 Apr 2007 Posts: 135

go get a hobby or something...suicide isn't the answer...even if u think it is now...you'll regret it trust me...u just need to talk 2 people.

XB · Posted: Tue Apr 24, 2007 12:16 am Post subject:

Being a teenager is probably the hardest time in life. I once thought of suicide 4 years ago (I won't mention reason in public), but thank God that I didn't actually get to do it. Trust me, you will regret it (...that is... if you believe in the afterlife, like I do). Suicide isn't that answer.

It sucks that you don't have any friend that doesn't understand your feelings. I don't know if swimming or writing diary will help you, but I can advise you to share your thoughts and feelings with someone who will understand. I'm sure One Lucky Girl will make a good friend.

XD-bear · Posted: Tue Apr 24, 2007 2:01 pm Post subject:

i aggree!
when you keep your feelings to themselves it makes them worse and other people seem to have nothing wrong which is bound to make you feel more seperated and alone...
try to open up to anyone even if its just on this forum- of course someone you could talk to in person would be better but any step you take should help.
im always here if you want to talk to me and there are of course many other members who would be glad to help too!

HisDevil · Member Age: 16 Joined: 13 Mar 2007 Posts: 15

ok.. but i have tried opening up to my friends but they... like i said they dont understand... and i try to hide it and not think about it, but i think me having a boyfriend helps alot because every time i do have 1 they stop me from doing stuff and they make me happier.. but when im not around him i still feel like i dont deserve to be here or be with him or anything.. . .and people say im demonic and stuff like that too, but i do try to hide everythingf and be normal.

rachiegrace · Regular Age: 18 Joined: 18 May 2006 Posts: 109

i think thats your problem. you need to love yourself and ur life before u can love any other guy.yes other people may help but only you can make urself truely happy. try lookin at things differntly. every one special in there own way u just need to figure out why u are and show ur talents off.

kitty · Posted: Mon May 28, 2007 10:49 pm Post subject:

you should continue to talk to people on teenwrd.

alx · Wanker Age: 16 Joined: 05 Nov 2006 Posts: 3301

HisDevil · Member Age: 16 Joined: 13 Mar 2007 Posts: 15

well its like im insane or something.... Shocked

i dont know wat to do.... gash.... dam... Evil or Very Mad